December 20, 2012- Journal Entry “On the airplane headed home to Kansas. LAX was filled with happy children, families, and couples rushing home for the holidays to greet their families and celebrate the season. It is also filled with a lot of grumpy travelers and screaming children, but I am trying to see the good … Continue reading Jingle Single.
The next day my eyes popped open early, no jet lag and no hangover from the Don Julio 1942- clearly the excitement had taken over. I could hear Sam was awake in the next room, so I splashed some water on my face, got the sleep out of my eyes, brushed my hair, curled my eyelashes and … Continue reading Pretty Woman, Without Being A Hooker.
The next couple of days were calm and relaxing on around the farm. Andrew worked each day while sat on the upstairs porch, working through email and Skype. I even had a conversation with my divorce lawyer that was 100% awful. Work was getting more intense, I did have three state pageants to produce in … Continue reading I Wasn’t Ready To Leave.
Now I that I was working I had a new distraction to focus on - which was just code for; not pay attention to what was really going on in my life. I started to push my emotions down even deeper, I had a new place to put my attention and began paying less and less … Continue reading Nothing Better Than A Good Makeout.
I soon found myself in a gray area, nothing was black or white, just gray and I was more confused than ever. Since I was back in LA I was continually bumping into friends that would ask me about my “breakup” and when I gave them just the minimal amount of information needed they would … Continue reading I Wanted Him To Leave Me.