Fly to New York to attend the CFDA Awards with a handsome stranger? Yes, please! This was just what I needed! No one despises red eye flights more than me unless the flight is over 8 hours and I have a comfy first class seat- then they are tolerable at best. Sadly, this flight was not … Continue reading A first kiss in New York is always a good idea!
The time had come for me I had to start being honest, with myself and everyone else. Ugh, I was “dating” men left and right and I was married. There I said it. At the time, I thought of it as a social experiment of sorts. My husband wanted me back and our therapist had … Continue reading GUILT GIFTS.
Now I that I was working I had a new distraction to focus on - which was just code for; not pay attention to what was really going on in my life. I started to push my emotions down even deeper, I had a new place to put my attention and began paying less and less … Continue reading Nothing Better Than A Good Makeout.
Each day was better than the last, or at least it seemed that way to me. Settling into my new place helped me feel more ‘normal’ and I soon found myself in need of a routine. I had decided now that I had a home I was going to throw myself into work. The only … Continue reading Breakthrough Or On The Verge Of A Breakdown?
I soon found myself in a gray area, nothing was black or white, just gray and I was more confused than ever. Since I was back in LA I was continually bumping into friends that would ask me about my “breakup” and when I gave them just the minimal amount of information needed they would … Continue reading I Wanted Him To Leave Me.
Love and Choices. We make 100’s of choices every day. What to eat, what to wear, what emails to answer, whether we are going to have another glass of wine after work (or a bottle), who to sleep with, what route to take to the office, who your friends are going to be, etc etc. … Continue reading I Needed A Hit.
Where do I begin? Jaxton is not just 'some guy' that I have known for a long time, he is so much more. I can't even think of the right word to describe him where it will make sense to anyone else. Have you ever had a guy/ girl come into your life that just … Continue reading Jaxton.
After being in the mountains with friends for about a week, having moments of fun and a lot of moments of weakness, I headed back to San Francisco. I needed to get my belongings out of storage and my car and head to the only place I knew to go- Los Angeles. I had lived … Continue reading I Finally Agreed To Meet With Him.
Journal Entry 2/12/12 "Today I feel broken. I finally spoke to my husband and it makes me sad. I am broken, totally broken. He broke me." I hadn’t spoken to my husband in 16 days and finally, I gave in. He had been sending text messages multiple times a day and I had only answered … Continue reading But I Can’t Kiss You.
Since the moment I had found out my husband had a double life I had not said the word divorce but for everyone else in my life it was a burning question and of course, it was floating around in my own head. I knew it was hard for them to understand why I wasn’t … Continue reading Yes! I Shouted. YES YES YES!